Hold me in your arms, never let me go.

Wow. I just want to wrap myself in my furry pink blanket and lay in fetal position, on my bed, with the light of night streaming through my open blinds.. and CRY. Let me explain..

All growing up, my younger sister and I have each had our own favorite aunt. Hers was Aunt Ruthie; mine was Aunt Rachel. We loved both of our aunts but just had our favorite. Our Aunts also have favorites. My sister is my Aunt Ruthie's favorite and I am my Aunt Rachel's favorite. I always receive cards and gifts from my Aunt Rachel.

Anyways, I always trusted my Aunt Rachel. I believed everything she told me and trusted her more than most. Well we stop hearing from her for a while. There were a few people that said she ran off with one of her husband's friends from church. There for a while she told us she didn't, but she wouldn't tell us where she was. I always believed the best about my favorite aunt. Well, come to find out.. she did run off with her husband's best friend. She left my very sweet uncle (who is not perfect, but NOBODY is) and took almost everything in the house.. leaving him a few items and the house.

It really hurts. As much as I trusted her. As much as I love my uncle. As much as she was my favorite, she's not anymore. She lied to me. She has made it clear that she much prefer to be with this man than have anything to do with her family.. and that includes me. She did send me a birthday card. But she signed it from her and her sancho(side man). The bond we once had has been broken.

Recently my Aunt Ruthie has been talking to my little sister a lot. My aunt loves my sister so much. She told my sister that if God would have given her a daughter she would have wanted it to be my sis. Where's my aunt that once loved me that much??!! It just hurts.. BIG TIME.